Drowning Poem by Taylor Paige

I'm under a thousand tons of water in the middle of an oceanic abyss. So many hands tried to help pull me out, but not a single one has been victor. And I'm holding on with every bit and piece that I have in my body, in my mind, in my soul, in my heart; hoping that I make it out. Sometimes, I finally reach the surface, I find my way home, and the sky I see is so endlessly beautiful. God, I could stare into this sky for millions of lifetimes and even then, it would not be enough time. It brings me an unexplainable happiness. One that I wish everyone could feel because I can't fathom any other experience that could possibly be more magnificent.
But then I get propelled back into the crushing water that contains a shattering weight of pain. I feel as though every inch in my body has been slashed once more. And I'm lost again. So I isolate myself from the ones I love. Because maybe in the silence of pain I can find the answer as to why my eyes are not good enough to stare into an infinitely beautiful sky. But then there's times where I start to think that maybe I'm not meant to walk on the surface to see the sky. That maybe I need to learn how to breathe underwater.