End Anyway Poem by Nunam Lawati

To the world i lied
Saying i was fine
When every part of me was shaken
Trying to live yet another day,
I am sorry
That i was broken
Shattered with pieces
That ripped every inches inside me
With bare face that i looked
With hopes that i longed.
Why would i never say?
How deeply it vented
How wrong it felt
Being that cries behind the doors,
Not wanting to be comforted
Not wanting to be assured
I now want to walk away
Ending everything i had.
I no more have those strength
I no more can stand up
I no more have guts
To move on and once more regret,
I see no way to keep going
Just a dead end that sparkles infront of me
I really want to end it
It will anyway.