Examining Thoughts Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Bluened moods, highlighting the day as I write
from depressions's sadness, held deeply within me.
Saturating my mind with tell-tale memories of the
past - some so darkened that I run and hide from
them until I can focus on their source and make
some sense of the images.
Totally recalling every word and nuance, whether
or not I want to.
Examining all thoughts these visions bring to mind,
trying to escape and find my way through these awful
mazes, trying to find a way around suicidal thoughts
before they grab hold and take over.