Expecting To Be Heard But Not To Listen Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

If I dared not to test my faith,
How would I know the strength of it to validate?
And If I prayed but still keep fears,
What is it that I wish to prove...?
An ability to choose a kept fear to keep near,
As an excuse?
How deep are my beliefs and 'who' do I fool?
Who am I to believe God can be deceived?
Especially when I am taught many lessons.
And on a daily basis do I learn from past mistakes.

If I dared not to test my faith to remove doubts,
How would I know the strength of it...
To validate with steps ahead to make.
And If I prayed to still keep fears worried about,
Who creates those limits to restrict understanding?
Am I not that awake to admit my faith is faked? Is it?
And what is it that I really wish to dismiss to rid,
When I claim to pray faithfully to One God knowing 'all'...
Before I do to confess.
Yet, expecting to be heard but not to listen.