Feels Like Poem by ESPN CHICK

Its been awhile since I've gone through these emotions
But as I sit here tonight they are slowly creeping back into my life
With every breath that I breathe I feel like it could be my last one

It feels like all I want to do is cry and not wake up for a day or two
Just feels like I'm barely hanging on to this life
But I know I've got to hang on

Got to be strong no doubt about it
Although with every step that I take it feels like I'm getting weaker
My whole body feels like its trying to break down

Trying to crumble into pieces
And I'm trying to keep myself together but its hard
Its hard to balance life along with everything else

It just feels like everything is crashing down
Feels like its a never ending process
Just another day another dreading day

I've got nothing to lose and nothing to gain
I'm trying to reach for help but somehow my heart and soul won't accept
Just wait and see I'm okay I swear there's nothing wrong here

Can you tell by the look on my face
By the broken smile that I wear
Or by all the hidden tears within my two eyes

Broken inside and out
How can nobody see it
I'm living a lie somebody help me

Feels like I'm trapped inside my thoughts
It feels like they are trying to take over me
Don't know what to do anymore

With every heart beat that beats
With my soul screaming
And with my shattered heart

Feels like my body won't ever be whole
Feels like I'm stuck like this forever and ever
But by the look on my face you won't ever know

And I'll keeping saying that I'm okay even though I'm not
I will go on with my average every day life
And live in this never ending circle of lies

May 8,2008