First Steps Poem by Laquory Jones

Ever since my first steps upon this earth maybe
Even before my birth I was still kicking up dirt
But you wouldn't understand maybe you would
No matter how many times I try to see the greater
Good I knock on wood while trying to do all I can
What's a definition of a man that question I continue
To ask myself with these cards I'm dealt especially
When pain is felt I put my emotions on a shelf but
People are piranhas in the sea so I psychologically
Have to go find some common ease before I
Decease with these tears I release it just seems
Nothing is going right no matter how many times
I try to stack good deeds to it's perfect height
In the end I know I would end up Like Daniel in the
Lions den I can't reveal to you what happens to me
when I think It's like as if life were to stop as I'm
Under hypnosis while trying to focus word to
Moses I'm stuck in the same oasis trance fixed
As the days went where Life was made to spent
Can you too take a hint I'm heaven sent but why
Do I feel lost it's like me put on the cross taking
Jesus place while Looking at devils face to face
The woman that I thought I love doesn't love me so
Where do I go from here lost loves burns inches
Deep so it's okay to weep many people are just
Too afraid to speak the truth no one would ever
Be like you I am looking for that brand new so
I again can't falter too that's the way it has to
Be to erase some of this insanity of dying
Hearts becoming heavily weighed