Fixiated? Poem by Hannah Davies

Am I fixiated?
With things that happened in the past that I hated.
I can't change the past
I need to move on and fast.

Cut out the old
Come in from the cold.
I finally open my eyes
And what a surprise.

Paul may have escaped the prison cell
But he won't be able to avoid the burning fires of hell.
No longer will I let him into my head
To me he might as well be dead.

Dawn got married so we no longer share the same surname
She didn't want me there at the ceremony and I felt the same.
She is now someone new
And the things I like about her are so few.

No longer any need to worry
I know she will never tell me she's sorry.
Too little too late
No more love but a heart full of hate.

Every day I will still see her
Every time I look in the mirror.
But I can't go on in this way
Even though there are still so many things to say.

I never thought it would come to this
I always thought I would go through life in bliss.
This proves that sometimes even I can be wrong
What doesn't kill me, makes me strong.

But there are things I have learnt
So in the future I won't get burnt.
I am the one in control
Picked myself out of a hole.

The world is mine for the taking
These fixiations and worries I need to be shaking.
Slowly but surely I have muddled through
Proving to others and myself of what I can do.