For So Long Poem by ESPN CHICK

I haven't talked to you in a couple weeks
And I wonder what you're thinking and doing
Wondering if you're even thinking of me even just a little bit

These feelings for you I think are finally fading
My heart isn't craving for you to rescue me anymore
But I still can't quite get over you

I still think of you from time to time
Getting over you completely is hard to do
You used to be the person I poured out to

Thinking back now I was stupid and foolish
Cause after all I didn't know you all that well
And I still don't cause you never let me

Maybe its a good thing
Cause after all we live to far away
The more and more I used to talk to you the more I was falling

Your words were wrapping around me
I'd stay up til 3 in the morning talking to you
I didn't care what day it was

I thought you were worth talking to
And you were for a long while
You were the one I could talk to

The one I could talk to without you judging me
If only you could have seen what you meant to me
For so long I loved you for that

For so long you were my escape
Escape from life
I can't explain the way you made me feel

You always made me smile even during my dark desires
I couldn't ask for more
You meant the world to me

Now I just wish I could figure out what to do with you
With you going in and out of my life
I don't know if I should just leave you alone forever

You know so much about me now
It's hard to leave you alone
It's hard to just runaway from the one person I clung onto for so long

August 7,2009