Freedom Poem by mona martinez

ppl believe freedom is all about just being free,
free to do all of the things you wish,
part of it is but it is so much more,
to not have that guilt over your head,
just when you take some free time,
and do the things that makes you happy,
no matter how big or small,
freedom to me is more than doing what i want to do,
freedom is learning how to live again,
without fear of not being normal,
or the fear of i deserve certain things,
my mind feels locked down,
heavy from some of the secrets,
that i still keep to myself,
i figure if i keep it inside,
nobody will have to get hurt,
for how i'm feeling inside,
it how i protect thoses around me,
but at the same time,
what i'm doing to keep it inside,
is hurting me more,
than letting it out and letting it be,
the truth,
the truth about everything i shouldn't be hiding,
i didn't ask for this,
i didn't want this,
and yet i'm stuck to deal with it,
some days it sucks,
and some are ok,
so tired of dealing with this.