Hard To Breathe Poem by Dakota Ellerton

Like falling into the depths of lonliness,
I see only darkness.
I've been here so many times before,
or maybe I just never left.
The only person you can trust,
is yourself.
Left waiting,
I lay here without a sound.
I promised to never stop trying,
I never was good at keeping promises.
Intoxicated from the pain,
I turn and close my eyes.
I cling to the pillows I've layed around me.
Is this what love is?
Is this how I'm suppost to feel?
Such a sharp pain fills my lungs,
you make it hard to breathe.
Countless times,
you've left me waiting,
hanging on for something else.
But you pull the chair from under my feet each time.
Watch me struggle to breathe like this.
Tears down my face,
my fists clenched.
I know I will never see you again.
I know I was not ment to see you again.
You can never truely lose what was never yours.
I was never yours.
You were never mine.
The ink in my skin, burns.
My scars pulse, wounds emerge from my flesh.
You've left me alone, again.
Im sinking into my own thoughts.
Not a bottle nor tablet, looked so good.
In the secrets of my lonliness,
I cry.
Fearful of your love,
I can not breathe.