I Am Destroyed Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

I feel so alone.
Even more so every single day.
My struggles are my own.
No family to lean on.
No real friends I can trust.
Snorting another line of dust.
Just wake up.
Don't you know you're still alive.
But what if that's not good enough?
What if in this world what gives me purpose is love?
To care about another human being in such a way.
Holding you on a pedestal that sits above all the rest of the stars.
Can God even hear my tears fall into this blacken scarred and charred little place we call earth.
I've wrote hundreds of songs and none ever hit the right note.
A soul so scorched that no matter the torch carried their is no guiding light.
What if my hell is an unending darkness in which there no escape.
I just wish something or someone could make me happy.
Make feel like I'm going through more then just the motions.
Get up, get dressed, go to work, come home, shower, watch some of that land of make believe on the t.v., and go sleep.
Do it all over again.
But what for?
Pay bills, eat, shelter of course but there got to something more.
Something that makes me excited.
Something that hurts, something that frightens.
Give me some thunder and lightening.
Maybe a whirlwind.
A little spin.
Searching for something fill this emptiness.
Fill my void, before in this world I'm destroyed.
I am destroyed.