I Am Not There Poem by Leria Hawkins

I Am Not There
Date: September 10,2015

What do you see behind the glare
Of summers scorching heat
I am not there, I refuse to be
A rug beneath your feet
As autumns voice takes to flight
On cool and balmy winds
No longer will you find me there
A bower for your sin
I will not bend in winters grip
When days grow long and chilled
I will not offer up my bread
Or concede to bitter pills
For spring is there around the bend
To offer me the chance
To start anew, as flowers do
To bloom with new romance

You’ll see me not, in clouds of gray
With rain upon my cheeks
I’ll opt to find, some peace of mind
In goodbyes, though bittersweet
As morning wakes another day
In her petticoat of pink
I’ll choose to see, a different me
Inside my yawns and blinks
I shan’t repeat, or choose the sweets
That fabricates your songs
For there has to be…sincerity
And I’ve dallied far too long
The truth has dawned a sunny day
But the light won’t sting my eyes
For whispers cast, our fruitless past
In a barrage of faithless cries

What do you see behind the glare
Of summers scorching heat
I am not there, I will not be
A pawn to your conceit
I will not play the tawdry games
Or fall victim to your pride
There’s more to me than you believe
Why should I bend or hide
The weight of love, upon my heart
Is much more than you deserve
The time is nigh, the price too high
To suffer what you serve
I’ll stand no more beneath your shame
No more to be denied
I will not pay with dignity
Instead…with my goodbyes

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