I'M Can Only Be A Better Me Poem by mona martinez

i know i'm not perfect,
but i'm not always to blame,
i can't keep feeling guilty,
for how somebody else feels,
i can only control myself,
before it was never about me,
always about other ppl,
i use to have to numb myself,
just to put other ppl above me,
i was so wrong,
but than you live and you learn,
life not always about plzing,
the other person,
it's about finding the balance,
between being happy with who you are,
and still helping others around you,
i wasted too much time worrying about,
making ppl happy,
and changing myself abit,
to be who they want,
but it what i know how to do,
change what others want,
and not what i want,
but today i felt it's ok,
to be who i am and not worry,
about what ppl want,
i don't want to always be dependable,
i want to stand on my two feet,
and still be ok,
when i have nobody there,
i want to be a better me,
that i know i can be.