I'M Suicidal Poem by Ramona Thompson

Insane
I feel like I'm always losing
My mind going off in a thousand different directions all at once

Some days I wanna live
Most days I wanna die
Ugly so often I feel ugly and empty when I look in that mirror
I beat myself black and blue sometimes just to make the pain fade away
Can't ever find any relief or joy in my all too often turbulent life
I just want someone beside my family to love me
Don't you say that that's too much to ask for!
A little bit of sunshine in the darkness of the agony that haunts me 24/7
Let me ask you people out there reading this depressing, sickening, stomach turning prose

Is that...?
Is that really too much to pray for?
Here on yet another of Ramona's suicidal nights

If it is than I fear I may have no other choice but to.....

2008 Ramona Thompson