I Really Dont Know What I Was Thinking Poem by thomas coltrin

There is a feeling that I cant describe
Because this is the feeling that the feelings have
They tell u how to feel and what to do
When in reality its all about u
They try to make me do…..
The stupid things I love about you
They try to make me feel…..
What my eyes are seeing…...
But its really hard
Because the only person that I love
is the person I cant see….

I went to bed they other night
Thinking about the stupid fight
That happened back in time
Then the phone call that u made
I forgot about the stupid things
And realized that we both, we make mistakes
Like the one ur in right now

You can tell me what u want
U can make me feel the feeling that u have
U can take a knife and stab it in my chest
U can take a gun and put a blank inside
Scare me half to death…..and make me want to cry
and then feelings that Il have… will make me want to die

I don’t know what im writing…..im saying stupid words
Im just confused inside….because of how it hurts
I think u know….what I think u think i know
But the question that I have is….why it took so long?

And the pain that u have caused….probably someday will die
I dont care how u look…I just want u…..look me in the eye
And tell me what u are and why you hide inside
Tell me all the pain u feel…and why ur eyes the bleed
Tell me everything you want….i will never leave
I will always hold you by my side…until the day we die
Witch I hope will never happen…and if it does…itl be a lie