I Remember Poem by Midnight Clarity

I remember loving you
the food I could not eat,
breath trapped with words
inside my soul, my throat
all closed with waiting for
the wonder of your eyes
to see my timid smile.
I remember hating you,
the tears that burned
like acid on my cheeks,
each salty path a death blow
to forever in your arms,
worse than the lies
that carved my heart.
I remember missing you,
the parting incomplete
yet still so final in the
shadows that it cast
across the long days
of my future all alone
with you not there
I remember turning back
to look, then turning forward,
putting you and love inside
some secret chamber
in my heart all woven shut
with maybes in the pattern
as I remembered loving you.