I Was Once Alive Poem by alexis alvarez

I was once alive, I use to be happy, I use to be full of joy. Now I still smile but inside Im not. the darkness is eating me it kills me every night I know why but it doesn't matter every day I tell myself to try to be happy I will be most of the time but I can't be for long I just go right back. I just want to disappear just leave this world. I want to be away from my troubles and do whatever I want just for a little while I was once alive but died in this darkness called my soul