I Won A Disease Lottery Poem by HB Rita

I eventually won the disease lottery
Called 'Adult on-set Still's Disease'
I didn't want it, It just came
It came like a hurricane and
Knocked me down as it uproots the tress and plants
Or you can say an earthquake with it's vertical movement
Wave me in whole, not a part!
I remember,
when I used to be green with red cherry blossoms
I remember,
how starry nights used to make me smile
And darkness of nature used to push me to walk
Miles or more every night
Today,
I am disabled
I crawled often to get up
Leaning on shoulders for two months
I am not qualified for a normal life
My able was leveled with disability!
Today,
I live with pain, no more green
It's just yellow and black all I see
It's Still's disease that paranoids me
It scares me to think that I won the disease lottery
I do not know what the future holds for me
No body knows
Neither me
Nor my doctors
It is there and will be there for rest of my life
Not easy
Absolutely not!
But one thing I would like to say
Today, is not a matter
Tomorrow is matter
And I promise, I will wear my running sneakers again
I will rush to take my mom to the doctor
I will fake fight with my two gorgeous rabbits again
Still's disease may knock me down sometimes
But It may not keep me down!