Impossible

forget your former passions,
forget what you've lived,
forget everything that harms you,
forget how she used to smile. please forget everything,
this i beg to you,
i don't want you to compare me,
i don't wan't you to make false expectations,
i don't desire a hopeless heart,
i don't desire a wretched body,
nor do i desire, someone's left over,
i desire you,
not a mere shadow,
not a mere fragment,
i don't want you to change,
i want you.
i don't lust mere ashes,
i lust you.
use me if you want to,
consume me if you will,
martirize me.
i know you want me,
i know you need me,
i know you love me,
but you carry a great burden upon you soul,
that remembrance of what used to be,
is your cross,
your enemy,
my enemy,
your misfortune,
my obstacle,
your gloominess,
my challenge,
your self-destructive nature,
my obsession,
yet your heartache,
your deep longing for what used to be,
are what afflicts me,
what mortifies me,
what slaughters me,
what makes everything,
impossible.