Is This The Reason You'Ve Been Distant Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Should one forgive and forget,
An intentional 'slighting' done?
The kind that is directed and meant,
From a mind in pre-meditative stages.

I've gotten tired of being the one to understand.
By those who quickly accept and forget,
Before the carelessness of thought begins...
The same shhh...stuff, again!

Can you hear what I am saying?
You could at least nod your head.
And pretend I am worthy,
Of 'some' of your attention!

Should one forgive and forget,
An intentional 'slighting' done?
The kind that is directed and meant,
From a mind in pre-meditative stages?

'How do you think I should answer that?
Tell me how do you wish for me to respond?
I don't want either one of us to get upset.
Nor do I wish to say something I might regret.
How do you think I should answer that?
And what would you do and think of next? '

I've understood and given you attention.
But from you 'that' I don't get.
Whether or not I am upset.
The only thing I wish we had that I do regret,
Is communication.
And how that prolongs happiness in a relationship.

'If one is not happy why doesn't one leave? '

Like you have already done?
Is that what you are saying to me?

Are you saying,
You have long gone...
And I am told by you in third person?
Is this the reason you've been distant?
With an eagerness to dismiss yourself,
When I begin to reminisce.
And the chill I feel in the air,
Comes from a cold shoulder!
Waiting to be warmed in someone else's arms.

I should be alarmed by this.
But I am not.
You've taught me to expect,
Anything from you.

And I do.
Yes...
I do!

I have even regretted I once had said that to you too!
When it was meant,
I believed it!
Before the games began.