It's Already Been Decided Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

The silent lie.
You can't hear it.
But that doesn't mean it isn't really there.
Just a simple omission of existence.
Just a drop radio active waste in a tall glass of water.
You have poison my soul.
You made me see how cruel humanity can truly be.
Casting these demons out.
Cleansing my body from my mouth to my bowels.
Making me party to something I had no knowledge of.
The unwilling, unknowing participant.
Who would have thought.
Who would have known.
But now your cover has been blown.
Fingers start pointing and suddenly you are gone.
Leaving me holding all the cards.
And what a bad hand it is.
Repaying a debt for being an idiot, a fool.
Selling snake oil like a tool.
Consequences of love so blind.
Trust me when I say its not always so kind.
It warps memories, distorts truth, and cast shade on what should be facts.
So forgive me I no longer trust so easily.
I can no longer take you word for it.
So show me, prove to me, it's not just another optical illusion.
Eyes wide shut.
Too busy staring at her you know what.
Maybe in my younger days.
When sex was all that mattered.
But now I'm not that easy or gullible.
A petty attempt in distraction.
Sorry my lady I won't give you that satisfaction.
No matter the time of day.
The middle of the night has no sway.
Dirting the sheets will not get in my way.
I got my own set goals, and ambitions. and have no time for games of bending to your will.
I have no interest in romancing the stone.
I'm just fine, even when I'm all alone.
I made my share of sacrifices for so many people along this trailing white line called my life.
No more compromises, no more bending over backwards for someone I should be able to trust.
It's fine if you want be with me.
But that's your choice better love me as I am.
Because I won't change.
Even if I love you with all my heart.
And understanding this is where you have start.
For me the rules of engagement have changed.
Chasing, a play of back and forth is no longer for me.
My expectations are so simple, yet so difficult for some.
Understanding there will always be divide, a gulf, a shadow behind the scenes you will be lucky if you ever get to see.
It should be just beneath the skin.
Yet it's buried so deep within.
That most can't find it.
Lost in the darkness of my soul.
I'm sorry if that happens to you.
That was never my intention.
But I wont pretend.
I won't give an inch till certainty is in my grasp.
And even then you will have hard time getting me to show these emotions.
Call me selfish, but my life is my devotion.
Everything else comes second is the notion.
The damage has been done, and I won't walk back to where it all begun.
A buried past.
A cast of characters you'll never get to know.
Locked in a rubber room to keep them from doing any more harm to me or others.
So the question becomes can you live with that.
Can you live with never knowing why, or how I became who I am.
Sins washed away.
That my life today.