Leave Me A Vacant House Poem by Anjali Mandokhot

Leave me a vacant House
With shut windows and closed gate
Knock me not, don't open my arms,
To leave them open in forever wait.

Let my rooms sleep in dark bliss,
Give nor breath nor show any light.
Don't step in to settle on my floor,
No paint or paintings, let my walls white.

My eardrums-leave them stiff and still
Sans vibrations of any song of life.
Sow not seeds in my barren lawns,
Oh! pray don't water my soil alive.

A fear of betrayal haunts my peace
And holds me from embracing you
I fear that someday you'll jilt me
When i will have started living in you.

I foresee my open arms in pain,
Unblinking windows with cobwebbed gaze,
My cracked floor and scaling down walls,
Waiting for you, as pass away the days.

Oh! How I dread all this pain,
Of seeing my soil in weeds and mold,
Of being embarassed by light rays,
Bringing out all my stains to behold.

Today i live in solitude,
Your adieu will give me loneliness.
So peaceful is this silence today,
Don't turn it into eeriness.

Leave me a vacant House
Preferable that is to being vacated,
For every life meets its death,
Bear me not, to be thus fated.