Looking Poem by Anna Cellmer

Trying to find a key
What is important to me
In this life, simply I can’t
It’s still not so easy
As it should be
Especially to me
Mother and wife
Who has a good husband
Beautiful children too
Nice job and friends
I shouldn’t look for something else
I feel I don’t have the right to feel like that
To search for something new all the time
But what I’m looking for?
What do I want?
More money, more sex, what?
Do I know?
Perhaps I’m just looking for
Something different I have
I’m just a little too far away
From this life I have
I still can’t believe
That this is the way I should go
And that this is all
Besides I’m just silly girl
And I don’t know what do I want
Or maybe I just like to search
This what I don’t expect to find
At all
Always new land