You get me confused
One day it's a hug and the next it's a bruise
And I have some really great memories with you
But I don't understand the things that you do
I have to be strong
What did I do wrong?
Every day you build me up just to tear me down
Every day I have to put on this front
Act like I'm not hurt
So I act big and cool for all my friends
And at school I rule the roost
And I try, I really try
But it's so hard sometimes
Because all I'm feeling is frustration and anger
Toward everyone
And the teachers, they're nice, they try to help me
But they don't know me
They don't know my story
I've seen things other kids cannot imagine
And I've felt things other kids can't even fathom
Every day I'm crying out for help
But no one hears me
The love and hate collide, but I can't let myself cry
Because that's a sign of weakness in your eyes
I'm not who you want
And it confuses me
Because sometimes all I see is your smile
When we're doing something cool together
And other times all I see is your fist or your knife coming at me
You tell me you love me
Summer vacation is almost here
Everyone's saying it's the best time of the year
Miserable screaming is all I'll ever hear
But hey, I don't want to be different
I gotta show that I'm okay
So I paste on a fake smile and I masquerade
And cover it all up with my cool guy swagger
Yeah all the kids think I'm the best
Even the kids I can't stand want to be like me
So I don't understand what you see that's wrong with me
There must be something wrong with me
You tell me you love me
You tell me I'm lucky
But your actions don't always line up with your words
I wish I was bigger
I wish I was better
I wish that my voice could somehow be heard.
The love and hate collide, but I can't let myself cry Because that's a sign of weakness in your eyes. i am not what you want. child abuse can affect the character for a long time unless it is healed through prayer and through psychological help and commitment to God . a fine poem. made me think a lot..... tony
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
A very strong write from the viewpoint of an abused child. Kelsey this poem gives a voice to their fear, confusion and self-blame. A sad write but a very important topic to talk about.
Thank you. Yes, I wanted people to realize why an abused child may choose not to speak up even when the situation is such that they should.