Love, Anger And Hate Poem by cecelia warner

We've spent so many
precious years together
and now it's come
to a heartbreaking end.
For all these years
you were more than just a mom.
You were my life, my heart,
and most of all my best friend.
Unintentionally, I hurt you
but through lies that
others have told.
This was why you were so mad.
Never being able to
share the truth with you
and missing that chance
leaves me so overwhelmingly sad.
Although you're no longer suffering
or in any more pain,
you are forever in our thoughts
and hearts, because your heart will reign.
Wish I could've been there for you,
you are missed so much.
Wanted to tell you how much you're loved
and how sad it is to never again feel your touch.
Missing you terribly part of me has also died inside.
You are no longer with us, but
still, in you, we long to confide.
Accepting your physical death
is all too unreal.
These tears shed for you
we can never conceal.
Even on the most beautiful days
with everything in full bloom
won't be as enjoyable
through all this gloom.
Feelings of love, anger and hate
this is now I my fight.
The only way I can see you, now
is through pictures, it just doesn't seem right!
Everyone who knew you
will think of you with so much love.
Honor and respect for you
is what we will speak of.
The feelings of immense anger
aren't directed toward you.
It's directed toward your fight with
the excrutiating pain you had to suffer through.
The biggest fight I have
is to deal with the hate.
There's just so many reasons
I hope and pray, my heart, it doesn't saturate.