~ Loving You ~ Poem by Ally Tenebrae

Loving you is something that kills me inside
Deep down the real me squirms and hides
It so hard to not care to pretend I hate
Being with you is like going against fate
Im paranoid
Self concious
Without you my life is just a big void
Empty and endless
Its like a poision a never ending spiral
At times your my love at others your my rival

Loving you
Its not suppose to be this hard....
Leaving me emotionally scarred
Tell me you love me
Or just let me be
Tell me it'll all work out
Scream and shout
Kill me
Save me
Tell me what you want? !

Loving you
Its just a lie
Insincere you might as well just let me die.
Slit my throat
and in my last breath
I'll apologize.....
for getting blood on your knife.
And then I'd thank you for ending my life.

Loving you is the only thing i can do....