Many Times Poem by Leria Hawkins

Many Times
Date: June 24,2015

I’ve lived and died
Many times since loving you
Found joy in your persuasion
Sorrow in your uncertainty
I have smiled at passing fancy
Shed tears beneath the weight of shame
You have given me moments of great hope
Mixed equal with unwarranted misery
So much unspoken promise, my love
Mere ripples in the illusive pool called tomorrow
I have savored the highs of loving you
Took comfort in sentiment I’ll never know
And I have endured the lows
Felt heartache in the throes of dark despair
I have braved many days, and months, and years of mystery
The question burning, always flaming, always the same
And I have died, my sweet
Yet to be buried in this cold, damp earth
I exist, only to muddle thru this lifetime
A ghost, searching for a reason to push on
I seek only a glimmer, a spark to light my way
My heart has endured, holding steadfast
Patiently yearning for my moment in the sun
I have given my whispers to the wind
Bared my soul to eyes of the night
I have lived for a future I cannot see
Died by the cruel and twisted hand of fate
I have lived with great passion
I have died of cold indifference
Many times…I have loved…
Many times, I have lost…
I have lived and died many, many times
Since loving you...

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