Metamorphosis Poem by Alyssa Lynn

Cuz for too long I've lived in my own isolation, for too long i've walked without a destination. One day I'll wake up and live differently one day I'll find out I'm already me.
But your not here I can't even feel you breathing and time again I thought I could still feel your heart beating. I don't have to be afraid to fall. i don't have to want him to hold me tight. Everything you ever wanted to reveal, but with you things are always concealed. Cuz I know I can be a wreak and nothing like you'd expect, but you still don't understand, I'm just trying to be who I am. I don't know who I'm fooling. Who I think I'm fooling, I put up my gaurd. I feel as if somedays I'm slowly fading...fading. The truth is I suppose you could say I gave him the power, but when I told him 'it was over ', I was the one in control. I'm running, I pass crayons, I pass swings, I pass childhood, as my innocence fades. Life is moving on with or without me, if I tell you a secret......Sometimes I can't tell whether I'm still living or not. No more pause button, I want a difference but I don't know what needs to be changed. The truth is I'm running in circles but I'm scared of looking back, I can't help but wonder if I'm even being seen. It's overcoming as I lose control, in five seconds I feel like I'll misplace my soul. Cuz I know these emotions could eat me up inside. This is confusion this is the tenstion this is me feeling lost. I will not cry I gotta keep moving, cuz this is the ocean.