My Family (Hugs And Kisses) Poem by Lorelei Page

Id do anything for her and her kids
Id do 5 for them kids
Id do 30 to life for them kids
Id fight for them kids
Id kill and Id die for them kids
Id do anything in this world to help provide for what's not even mine, yeah, them kids.
I remember the first time either one told me that they love me
At the end of the night
wrong or right
they ran up just to hug me
man, that's so touching...damn, now that's something... so why in the world did i end up running away from those so caring and so loving?
I can never explain why im so afraid
why commitment can't be made by me
or why I would parade out the door and out on my family.
I remember the night
I remember the fight
I remember the tears and fire in her eyes
as I said goodbye for the very first time.
wow I said what I meant
yeah, that's what I said but lets not play pretend
I really meant it
no, not ever, not even for never
I didn't intend to stay gone for forever
and after four days on the visit I paid
she looked me in the face and said stay.
and I stayed.
Id do anything for her and her kids
Id pillage or steal for them kids
give up drugs even still, for them kids
get a job at the mill help to fulfill for them kids
God damn it I will
but God damn it I failed
so write me hate mail
I can't read it in jail
and dope debts don't post bail
how bad does this feel! ? !
I can't even fathom the story she told to her girls
why Im not comin' home, my heart hurts and it burns
I shattered all three of their worlds
I don't deserve her or her two daughters
Im just a deserter
Im just like my father
Id do anything for them, they're my family
would she wait 5 for me?
would she wait 9 for me?
would she promise her life to me?
fight for me?
ride or die with me into eternity?