My Gain, Lost. Poem by Shaakiera Schroeder

For our Angel JK
(14/11/1979-06/07/2010)
The day I met you,
Unbeknown to me, my world changed.
I gained a committed friend, a best friend,
A brother who loved me, just for me.
You tried to understand me,
An impossible task,
but it is in that effort that I was most convinced of your love for me.

The day I met you,
Unbeknown to me,
My world changed…for the better,
I became a better me.
A space in my heart I never knew existed was filled,
A special space created just for you.
These places exist in all our hearts, but we don’t know it,
Until its filled. And we feel it…God do we feel it..
When its empty!

You’re gone…OH the PAIN! !
I cried for the fear of the empty,
Until I stilled myself,
Absolute silence…envelopes…far in the distance,
I hear your voice tell me:
“I’m safe now, I have no pain_its okay, let me go! ”
Savouring the sound of your voice,
Slowly I open my eyes…and realise that i…am…still…full!

The little space created just for you,
Is saturated with love, that is YOU!
You’re still there, you never left.
Your heart and spirit imprinted in me,
Permanently tattoed on my mind, body and soul!
As long as I breathe…you breathe,
Inside of me!

The day I met you,
Unbeknown to me,
My life …changed.
I gained so much,
Most of which was unimaginable to me.
I gained so much more and can only hope that,
You gained half as much as me!

THE GREATER THE GAIN_
THE DEEPER THE LOSS…

YOU_a Magnificent GAIN…
Tragically now also…a GREAT LOSS!

Written by
Shaakiera Schroeder
(05/06/11)