Never Meant To Belong Poem by Elisha De La Rosa

Every moment slowly decays for a dying dream
The sun, the treasures of life falls back to nothing
The grey sky, burst into tears for me
Tears fall for a life that was quickly fading

One hour can be so precious
To a man's life that have been wasted
The thunder rumbles on, as I stumbled onto a sidewalk
The rain sung me a nostalgic tone for my run.

The words I said before was meaningless.
Now what I am about to say, would not be worthless
At this time a apology would should mean something
I must say then before I fall back to nothing

The walk of my dark ecstasy
Took me to my broken family
I told them the news, and their faces show sorrow
This will be the last they would see me for I won't be there tomorrow

While I still attained my warmth
I went to my lover....
I held her dearly in my arms
These minutes won't mean me any harm

I wished those seconds would last for years to come
She didn't know, nor shall she ever find out
Best for her to hate me, than know what is about to be done
The words, my feelings choked, remaining in my mouth

My friends barely remember me
So I only apologized from not being in their memory
I was already fading from their minds
Sadly I'll be left behind....
Every second is absorbing my soul
I cease to exist as the memories of no one.
My skin turns hard, and feels ice cold.
Time to go back to the place I called home.

I struggled to maintain my stance
I walked into the graveyard of my great grandmother
I found her grave and collapse.
I'm sorry for being a failure

You wanted me to live on and be something
I'm sorry it looks like that isn't going to happen
I looked up to the sky, dripping in tears
But in the face of death, goes my fear.

It looks like I was never meant to belong
To strive for happiness, to strive for love
I started to dissolve, I quickly started to fade
Faded back to nothing, dust I remain