Nightmare Train Poem by Dakota Ellerton

In my eyes I see a fate unchanged, through the deceptions of love and blindness, I dwell on crimson fires burning in my palms lighting the room, setting fire to my flesh and burning beauty into my skin.

I am my own, I am course and redeemed. To penitrate vulnerablility I stand firm in the words of ‘drugs are freedom’ that remain carved into my arms and liver, setting me free from my mind and other minds, leaving me content and polluted in the most inevitabley painful situation I could no longer avoid.

Without my sweet, I could not love or live, so deliberatley living through my own death, as my body absorbs the foriegn security I’ve instilled through a moment of doubt and relapse, it swims through my blood now, bonding and accepting me as I accept it.

I shiver and shake as my nose bleeds, as the beautiful flow of misery pours from my head, my eyes cringe and bled the same, as the innocent gaze I’d once trapped myself in had slipped away in tears, in mistaken nightmares of what has been and what would be, if only I could read in sight and tear through pages of endless thought.

You are my conquering image, a thought that once was, never could be, never will, as if you and I had not once exhisted, in anything more then just a stare and smile - to leave once, and be gone forever, I’ve accepted more then you had ever known.