No Longer That Girl Who Believes In Happy Endings Poem by mona martinez

Was a girl who believed in fairy tales,
and happy endings,
now I don't know what to believe anymore,
my world feels like it shattered into a million pieces,
everything I thought I knew about myself,
is all starting to change,
I'm not the same girl I imagined in my mind,
nothing is what it seems,
pieces are starting to come together,
that are telling me otherwise,
I know I needed to do things,
to survive the moment of it,
but knowing that,
don't make dealing with the pain any easier,
a part of me feels broken,
my childhood was mostly a lie,
and now I'm picking up the pieces of the truth,
or what little of it that is left,
I feel damaged,
a girl shouldn't have to go through,
most of her life doing things,
she never wanted to do in the first place,
people saying it wasn't my fault,
like that helps with the pain,
having memories that you had no control over,
and the only thing you can do,
is block out the memory,
just to ease the pain just a bit,
use to be a girl who believed in fairy tales,
and happy ever after,
but all she sees is a world full of pain,
and little love to go around.