Nobody Loves Me Poem by Ramona Thompson

My family
All backs turned againest me
My friends
One by one
Disappeared and deserted me
In my greatest hour of need
I can't believe that I am truely all alone
With not even a stranger to care or to lend a hand
The fear
The grief
Overwelming me
Drowning me in the hell of my sorrow
At last coming to understand
All too painful and too damm real
Nobody loves me
Nobody at all
Not even the good lord above


Cried myself dry
Broken my heart in 1001 places
Soon to be 1002
If it goes on much longer like this
I'm not sure that I can hold on
I'm not sure that I can be that tough
That strong
I don't think that I'll even want to live
Not like this
Not this way
All by myself and afraid
So afraid that it will stay
Forever this way
Lonely
With no one to ever touch or be touched by
Staring hard into the mirror of my doubts so cruel and
unforgiving
Wondering once again why nobody loves me
Nobody at all


Am I so very ugly?
So unworthy?
Is this awful neverending nightmare really to be my fate?
Rejected
Unaccepted by any and all whose paths I come across
Did I really do something so wrong that never can I ever
have anything good or right in my life?
Does God really hate me that much?
Does everybody in the whole wide world feel the same?
Sometimes I wonder
Sometimes I think that maybe it would be better if I just
cut this agony of mine short
With just a few expert slices and dices
Along this dotted line I have drawn
All it would take is a few precious painful moments more
and then it would all be over
And I would be free
Free from the torment of this hell I'm living in
Where sad but true...
Nobodys love me
Nope, nobody at all


Damm it!
Damm it all to hell!
Where I'm been and back again
Endlessly soul searching and yet finding nothing
No one there or in the heavens above to hear my lonely
cries
Weeping all alone in my empty bed
Reaching out for something
Someone
Anyone
Grabbing onto nothing
Always nothing
Hating myself more and more everyday
As I prepare to spend both a lifetime and a eternity
All by me, myself and I
Helpless
Hopeless
So sure
Too damm sure that...


Nobody loves me and nobody ever will....