Lately there have been chances not taken…memories
unforgotten…tearing my soul into tiny pieces rushing
my beliefs toward yesterday's blues….but…
-now is next to nothing compared to where I've been.
I fall sleep in dreams and dream with eyes wide open.
Demons followed me into a life of dependency upon people
and chemicals I was born to deal with. I bled my veins just to feel
and I felt just to heal….but…
-now is next to nothing compared to where I've been.
Tears flow and babies cry and all I can think about is
where I need to be. I live in a town beneath two rocks.
One rock was my laughter and smiles and I lived with
surprising fantasies coming true. The other rock broke my
back and turned me into a monster rough enough to
have poor reliance's…but…
-now is next to nothing compared to where I've been.
I used to be filthy and uprooted between entwined thorns
of dead roses bleeding into the soil. My addictions persuaded
my brain into carrying a need for pain and punishment.
My mistakes are my own and I own my mistakes. I only know
this because…
-now is next to nothing compared to where I've been.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem