Perhaps A Different Name. Poem by Oscar Munir

I have cried enough tears mummy don't you think?
wherever I go, I shed a tear,
like a magnet I'm always attracting pain,
pain to myself, pain to those close to me,
I hate it, i hate it so much and I hate my life,
You said daddy left because of me,
On top of being an unwanted pregnancy I had to be a girl as well.

I've been teased all through out my life,
I was teased in all levels of school and I'm still teased at my current work place,
Oh and by the way,
It's my eleventh job in just one year and
I'm afraid I might lose it as well,
I used the company printer to photocopy my passport.
There was always no serious reason that I lost the first ten jobs you think there was?
It's just misery and bad luck following me around like a fly.

it wasn't easy for you when you conceived me I know,
But trust me I've lived miserably like the name you gave me,
Misery! oh what awful name! !
I have lost things, opportunities and people that meant a lot in my life,
The most recent being my fiance who mysteriously disappeared without a trace,
No one deserves such an ugly name, no one,
As a blessing from you and I believe it's not too late, Mummy can I get a different name?

©️OMS