Fernando Alvarez

Rookie - 0 Points (1988- / Mexico City)

Prisoner Of His Own Mind - Poem by Fernando Alvarez

In the darkness of my mind
I sit and quietly ponder
Wondering what the next day will bring
Will I be able to survive?
Thinking of so many inventive ways
To kill myself
How can it be done quickly I wonder
So I will not have to thrive in agony
The classic hanging by a rope
Well that is good
But with my weight I would break the rope
Bust my ass and what would have been the point
So then I move on to something else
What about pills?
Yes that would do the trick
But then again I hate swallowing them, so um no
Well damn lets think here
There is always walking out in front of a car
That would probably lead to a driver’s heart attack
So lets mark that off the list
Taking a gun and blowing my head to China
Then that leaves a horrific mess
I think the clean up crew would be cussing me after
Then I would have to haunt them
The typical slicing of the wrists
Let's not forget the throat
I would sit in a tub
Just to contain all the blood
Drinking chemicals
To poison my body
Cease my mind
That is the logical choice yet
Throwing myself off a building
Or a cliff just does not appeal to me
My bones would be destroyed
My body a puddle of goo
Oh yes I did forget the best one of all
A classic that seems to never fail
Walking into an ocean or
Submersing ones self in a tub of water
These thoughts run through my head daily
I wonder how the hell am I still breathing
Goddess knows I don’t want to live
For some reason I still do.
I am that much of a coward that
I cannot go through with these acts?
Sitting in a daily torment
I remain in my darkened corner and cry
This is a look into the head of one
A person that you think is normal
One with mental illnesses that you can’t see
A man trapped in a prison of his mind

Comments about Prisoner Of His Own Mind by Fernando Alvarez

  • (11/23/2006 1:50:00 PM)

    mine is a presion too (Report) Reply

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Poem Submitted: Tuesday, August 9, 2005

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