Really Want Poem by Mehta Hasmukh Amathaal

Really want

I did not give him care
Or even less dared
He was my ideal
And I loved in real

But was it real?
I made no deal
I felt
And fragrance too was smelt

I was shying
And denying
Its existence
Love was missed chance

Afar many years later
I sit alone and cater
Old memory
With feeling of some sorry

What must be his feeling?
I was really saddening
He must have undergone agony
I really want to cry honey