Scenerio Love Poem by Dakota Ellerton

I layed on the lawn,
thinking of what I'd do.
Would I throw my sorrow at you,
through an honest hit?
Or would I stand silent,
and write it on my face?
So many scenerios played behind my eyes.
None of which, were the ones I wanted.
I'd be too pathetic,
if I did such a thing for you, for me.
I prepared to scream,
to show you what I've never shown another.
I'd look both ways,
behind and around.
Like a secret,
I'd open my palms,
to unveil a small bloody heart.
'It's dead', I'd tell you.
I'd show great sympathy,
hoping you'd noticed the blood stain on my chest.
Just the same,
I'd quickly hide it in your pocket,
and tell you to discard it.
I prepared for a scenerio like this.
But as soon as the car pulled in the driveway,
and you stood there.
One look in your eyes,
and I could see You looking back.
I walked to you,
thinking a million things.
'What do I say... what do I say...'.
I couldn't think of a word.
When I stood before you,
I clenched my fist at my side,
opened my palm, and unwillingly slapped you across the face.
In that moment the world went silent.
My eyes filled with tears,
and I grabbed the back of your head.
Your lips to mine, It was deep.
Why was I doing this,
had I had no self respect to linger on?
I caressed the sides of your face,
and you wrapped your arms around my waist.
I nearly wanted to smile,
but was far too weak.
My life was almost over,
so what difference would be made.
I could taste the sweetness of your kiss,
on my lips.
I looked at my chest,
the hole promising my end had vanished.
My hands, were no longer stained in blood.
I nearly felt alive.