Seems Like Just Yesterday! Poem by Kristin Nicole RothDavis

They dropped a bomb right in my lap
The moment I thought the hard times were going to rest
I remember the moment as if it was yesterday
I was layin' on the couch takin' a nap
They had me come in for a quick test
I worried 'bout how I was going to pay
They told me don't worry, it's gonna be okay.

3: 30 came around and the phone rang
The words came out with a blustering bang
My heart shattered on the floor
Instantly my world would be no more.

You said there would be some things we'd discuss
First thing come Monday mornin',
All weekend I wanted to hide
Felt like the whole world was watchin' o'er me
Inside I was numb, not knowing what to feel
Wonderin' if this was a nightmare,
For my kids sake I didn't want it to be real.

I remember the taste of my daughter's tears
As she layed her face on mine
Eye to eye, cheek to cheek
Moment seemed so bleak.

My whole world fell apart in a flash
Tears flowed so heavily with a splash
I can remember my worse nightmare
The day I lost my hair

That day was horrifying
No one explained to me just how it would be
The first three days were hell
I woke up on day one
Sheddin' all over my pillow
Day two, I bent over and reach'd down
And there it fell, all on the ground.

Luckily on day three it was just me
In the Davis house
I was so angry at the world
Hell I felt like a louse.

Called up a friend and they weren't home
Got on line and started to roam
Lookin' for some kind of familiarity on the net
Answers I s'pose, what could one expect.
To my surprise there was a lot to read
I lock'd away all info found
Bound in my memory file
Hopin' that I'd find some kind of reassurance
And be able to smile.

I didn't tell anyone for the longest time
Single mother of two what was I gonna do.
Wasn't thinkin' bout me fallin' apart
I was more concerned of me breakin' their heart
I wanted to just grab them and hold em'
Forever didn't seem too long anymore

Hadn't left the house since that day
Hell someone needed to go to the store
No food, and the girls were tellin' me too
I want this! I want that! Momma, c'mon you look fine
Wonderin' how much more this
Was I going to have to do alone
Pain increasin' with every minute, crawlin' up my spine.

I pick'd up the phone and started to cry
I couldn't do this, even if I try
Called up Beth, she came right over
One glance at me and she knew
I didn't have to say anything
My girls came runnin' to her and I
Sayin', 'Momma's goin' to die! '

I fell to the floor, panic set in real quick
Before I knew it they were all three sittin' next to me
'Momma, you're still beautiful... just watch and see'
Instantly I looked in my daughter's eyes
Came to realize
They were my strength
With them I could go to any length.