Heather Kemper

Self Betrayal

For every shadow seen and heard
the winds change the day.
My memories past and present
will come at night to stay.

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He told me to just dropp it
to move on and live in peace.
Yet for every night there is a nightmare
tearing up my dreams.

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My heart is pained with anger
a feeling of deceit.
For I betrayed myself
I gave in to defeat.

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I gave up my control
on that dark and dreadful night.
I gave up my soul
when I abandoned my fight.

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I tried to stop him
honest.
I tried to tell him
no.

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He just pushed me back down
told me very slow.
Sit back and be quiet
I could just break your neck.
I want a little fun
how about a little lick.

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My heart turned upside down
as I cried out from the shooting pain.
But when he was through
he told me
he thought I liked it just the same.

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Now give me your stupid hand
he said
As he yanked me off the bed

*
Told me to get dressed
smiled sweetly and said.
'What's wrong? Smile!
you look so distressed.'

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When we went outside he scared me
gave me this piercing grin.
He made me feel like I was nothing
I could never win.

*
Now look into my eyes
do you see the shame that's hidden there?
Since that dreadful moment
I've been afraid to show I care.

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Everything has changed
including my view of life.
Nothing looks the same
since I betrayed myself that night.

Poem Submitted: Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Poem Edited: Saturday, December 18, 2010

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Comments about Self Betrayal by Heather Kemper

  • Julia A (2/9/2007 6:00:00 PM)

    Incredibly real emotions. I felt like I was reliving it.

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  • Zen Bojczuk (1/3/2007 10:50:00 AM)

    Very powerful poem. Intense and sad.

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  • Amelie Anonymous (1/3/2007 5:02:00 AM)

    That was so sad, so intense to read....I can relate to this poem a lot..I feel for you..
    Excellent description, this poem really painted a picture in my mind....brought up a lot of feeling......really great work Heather

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  • H L (1/3/2007 4:41:00 AM)

    disturbing but suprisingly interesting

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  • Francesca Johnson (1/3/2007 3:39:00 AM)

    Intensely disturbing subject matter...... no words to give you here, Heather. Just thoughts....

    Fran xxx

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