Sorrow (1993) Poem by Lil Sutton

Keeping my feelings so deep within my soul has left me with a gaping hole.
The darkness closes in as disgusting thoughts run through my mind. Always putting myself down,
Never treating myself kind.

The world surrounds me but I dont see it through clear eyes.
My tears start to fall like rain drops from a stormy sky.
My thoughts are as black as the middle of the night.
Abusing my mind, never putting up a fight.

A teenagers image of a perfect life is cut up into shreds by a slayers knife.
I speak what I think is the truth but nobody hears.
Im left alone in the world to face all of my fears.

Not knowing who's on my side I want run away and hide.
Sometimes I want to curl up and die.

Rejection and failure haunts my mind.
The real me I have yet to find.
When I find myself maybe my feelings of hatred towards the world will be no more.
But until then I cant be sure.