Sorry I'm Troubled Poem by Tears From A Soldiers Eyes

You tell me it's okay, tell me to be strong,
Tell me you understand, say I won't be alone.
You tell me to keep my head up, say I'll be fine,
Tell me not to quit, tell me it's just a matter of time.

But I'm not okay—and I'm tired of pretending,
I don't feel strong, I feel like I'm bending.
Your words fall soft, but they can't reach inside,
Because even surrounded by voices, I'm alone when I cry.

I can't lift my head—the weight is crushing my chest,
Each breath feels like a test I keep failing at best.
You say 'don't give up, ' but you don't feel this pain,
You don't wake up every day feeling empty and drained.

Don't pat me on the back, don't say 'you're brave, '
This doesn't feel like courage—it feels like a grave.
It's like someone dropped a boulder straight through my heart,
And no one noticed the moment it tore me apart.

I hate this life, and it feels like it hates me too,
Like I was never meant to survive what I've been through.
I look at the world and wonder if I belong,
Or if I've been fighting a battle that's gone on too long.

I don't need fixing, I don't need a speech,
I need someone to sit with me where I can't reach.
I need someone to say, 'I see your hurt, '
Not rush me past it when everything still burns.

I don't want to be told this will all fade away,
Some days I just need permission to say—
'I'm breaking. I'm tired. I don't know what to do.'
And still be loved for telling the truth.

So if I ask for space, it's not because I don't care,
It's because I'm learning how to breathe in despair.
I don't want to be hurt—I just don't know how to heal,
And today, this pain is the only thing I feel.

But maybe… just maybe… if someone stays,
If someone listens instead of pushing me away,
I won't have to carry this weight by myself,
And wanting rest won't mean wanting to disappear.