Sunflower Sorrow - My Poem To Kacy, At Last Poem by Diana van den Berg

Kacy, it has been a long time
these nearly three months
that my words
froze on the air
like icicles cutting
into my heart,
strangling the seeds
so they couldn’t grow
but now
at last
the icicles
are melting
enough to
let the seeds lift up
their hearts to look for you
to keep their promise
to you
to grow
and flourish
in your remembrance
and one day
burst open
in sunflower glory
to shout to the world,
who knows anyway,
that you will
never
ever
ever
be forgotten.

I feel you in the ether;
in the breathless, wind-still summer sun;
in the light autumn breeze
teasing the leaves into a twitter;
I see you in the high winds
as you dance barefoot, branch-high
in flowing white robes
outside my window,
twirling with the tree-arms that wave wildly
in their grace and joy of your understanding;
I see you in the blue, blue skies
and the rainy grey ones
and I hear you in the birds
calling,
calling,
calling...
the two-puddly black-collared barbets,
the haunting call of the purple-crested louries,
the laughing doves;
I feel your compassion
in the frog hopping
across the road to safety last night
rejoicing in the rain
(how you loved your little froggy friends!)
and in the closing of my kitty’s eyes
in purr-ecstacy of love.

I talk to you often, as you know,
and though I have never heard your voice
while you walked this Earth,
I hear you now,
calm and peaceful
talking back to me
in your melodious Gaia voice
and that brings me peace
and Nature rejoices
as it folds its arms
around you.

(5 April 2010)