The One And Only Time Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

With spinning blades hovering above the bluest ocean.
I throw out my last life line.
But I should have known.
Maybe I've always known you would jump back in again.
Sometimes you just can't win.
But you still must give it the good fight and do what's right.
And with that done.
I must leave the thoughts of you behind.
The drowning victim.
Screaming for help.
But not willing to help herself.
So afraid of being alone.
But not willing to change it.
Grab and hold on this one last time.
The flight to be free.
Trapped in a mental absurdity.
I'm no good.
Oh I can do no better.
Oh I deserve all the beatings I get.
Keep telling yourself that because it is all you know.
It is all you ever known.
I don't blame or hate you.
But I can not condone what you are doing.
Not when the doing was not necessary.
I was giving you the help you needed to escape.
I was giving you a chance to enjoy every breath you take.
At a expense all my own.
I'll pay to ward off the demons of the black skies.
But only one time.
Only ever one time.
I can see what I built burning.
The futility of what I tried to do.
It just brings anger in my heart.
A sadness comes in the form of tear drops as I depart.
Another failed expedition.