The Real Cost Of Living Poem by Sarah Sisson

I belittle myself at just the wrong time.
I give away power and do undermine...

...the true identity I have in my heart.
A cascade of self worth; say goodbye, I part...

...with happiness and I provoke confusion.
It's time for the madness; the hell has begun.

And so I loose light and my faith is burned out.
I want too much attention; seek to much clout.

Then why do I set myself up for a fall
by being too hard on myself? Fail for all...

...to see that my insecurities are tied
to things I should have been good at and have tried...

...to do things the best I could; live so fearless.
And not monkey around with things just to miss...

...a life that perhaps others would just resent.
Instead I fled viciously. Now life is spent...

...thinking about all of the challenges lost
because I was so scared of paying the cost.

copyright 02-02-2009 Sarah Sisson