These Pages Have Captured My Human Soul Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

Competition these feelings I try to avoid.
Jealousy it crawls inside.
Conquer and divide.
So paralyzed.
Hating you for no obvious reason.
Uncomfortable moments.
Feeling like a parasite.
How do I describe the thoughts that run across my head.
It's more then wishing you were dead.
Oh no the plan has gone awy.
The laughter coming from that mirror make me wants hide.
Deep, deep inside.
There is a crying child wishing he would get his way.
Just this once.
Planting the bomb, and just like that it's gone.
Who was that man, why was he here.
He's not me, oh dear.
Trying to prove to who?
A crisis of conscious, and a moral obligation.
Oh thy love is just another complication.
I don't want to get hurt so I won't let you in at all.
Wish I could bring down these walls.
Built from the pain over the years.
Somethings don't just disappear.
They fester, a cancer to the human soul.
The desire for having complete control.
So scared of what I can't.
I know beneath the surface lies this demon.
And he is clinging.
His name is fear.
He will chase me to the ends of the earth if I let him.
It is easier to let go then admit you just don't know.
Erase it all.
A mind numbing existence.
This is the couch and my therapist.
Magic are the pages tried.
Releasing all the truths.
And only in this place do I not have to put on a brave face as if nothing wrong.
Only here can I be anything but the calm I portray.
Only here do I feel I truly belong.