i may still imagine
an old lady dying with cancer
telling me that she is still
reading my poems
(if they really are, and she
remarked one time when i missed her
in New York that she
felt the pain, of love and desertion
and that she still looks for
something greater than those
love poems which i have posted
a long time ago)
i do not really know much about her
met her not much
but she told me she knew all about
my secrets
and she passed me a cold glass of beer
to relax me about what she wants to
tell at that moment)
it could be a blast to my being
but i really did not care
even when i was a child i have
already learned being alone and
numb
the past is past
their sins are theirs
i have a life to live
and that is the most
important thing
so here i am
living beyond those rules
selfish and thinking only
about myself
i've changed somehow
writing what i want to write
free and uninhibited
having loved and loving still
despite, yes, despite, this life
lives and must.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem