This Pain Poem by ESPN CHICK

Can you look behind my two eyes and see that I'm alright
I've tried to hide all the pain deep inside
And I've tried to bury the tears so no one can see that I wanna cry

I put on a broken smile so maybe no one can tell
And I cover up those lies in the mirror
Hoping that the lies aren't written all over me

Deep down inside I'm burning up with this
With this exhaustion of this pain
With the broken heart shattered everywhere

I try hard to not let it show
All the scars I still look at every now and then
How I miss those fresh scars but I swore to myself I wouldn't dare turn back to them

This pain is taking over me
Taking over my body and soul
What must I do to rid this

To rid this pain I'm sick and tired of it
Its smoothing me and I can't breathe
Just wish for once I could be whole

Be whole and it would show
Maybe I could be forever out of pain
Cause it's getting old

I'm ready to move on but I can't
For some reason my mind and soul won't let me
This pain is just too much for me to handle and I can't handle it any longer

I just wanna scream out loud and punch the wall
This pain someone take it away
I don't need or want it

Take this pain away from me
I want to be whole is that too much to ask for
That would be one of the best gifts to me just to be whole

I wanna be happy and not fake the smiles
Not hiding all the pain deep down inside
And burring all those tears behind my two eyes I just wanna be whole so I can let it show

May 6,2008