Time Is My Fear Poem by Autum Foster

Yes, you are my inspiration,
I must face this sweet intoxication,
I need to face the facts today,
I must admit what I can't say,
I must admit my love for you,
And how it burns through and through,
I have to tell you, I can't hold it in,
But the words wont form, I just can't win,
I guess I probably should let go,
Does the hurt and anger show?
I always sing to the same old tune,
It always ends in doom and gloom,
I am quite lucky, that I see,
At least your my friend, even if that's all you'll ever want to be,
Yes, it would hurt to face rejection,
That's why I won't ask, like a deadly infectoion,
You're killing me and there's nothing I can do,
Take mt hand? Help me through?
I guess there isn't more to this,
This must be the final twist,
Maybe one day, you will see,
What your friendship does to me,
Maybe one day you'll look back and think;
'Maybe I shouldn't have blamed the drink'
Then you'll think, in your final strife;
'Maybe I shouldn't have ended that poor girls life'
Metophorically of course, I'm still right here,
I guess I'll wait, but time's my fear,
Will you ever learn to see,
Could you ever fall in love with me?
Will it be me? Or someone other?
Will you be my friend? Or maybe my lover?
Will you make my hear beat?
Or burn me with you're deadly heat?
I know which I would prefer,
But which, I ask, will incur?
I feel your heartbeat under my hand,
Your lips meet mine with no reprimand,
One hand placed upon my waist,
The other, gently stroking my face,
I feel your warmth, can you feel mine?
This beautiful moment, frozen in time,
But all good things must come to closure,
All I have left is the exposure,
When will we commit our next mistake?
There's nothing left for you to take,
You've already taken my heart, my body, my soul,
Wherever you've been, you've left a hole,
There's nothing left, can't you see?
You can walk right through me,
You've taken everything I ever had,
You've left me broken, down and sad,
You were mine, for just one night,
I guess that fact escaped your sight,
Do you know, how much it meant?
The look on your face, the passion of concent,
I cannot convey how I feel,
But I know those nights were real,
Yes, I know, it breaks my heart,
The ease with which you tear me appart,
I want you to stay with me forever,
Never leave, but never say never,
I want you to stay right here,
Time will tell, but time's my fear.